Wednesday, July 27, 2005
i've come to the point where i realised i cant keep many close to me cos inadvertly i end up just hurting either them or myself.i don want any of that to happen.i just wanna move on with what i have in life currently and just be wat i was sposedly meant to be.
its a mask as i once said, the things i do and think are totally two different universes, parallel,adjacent of perpendicular to each, i have no idea.i just know that its tiring to go to bed each night and lie in the dark, wondering what tmr will be, wondering if life is gonna become btr or worse,wondering if theres actually something btr out there that i could or might do in the end.and at the end of that i just reach out into nothingness to find,well basically, nothing.black, and nothing.
is it normal to suddenly feel like crying because of all the things you have inadvertly caused?is it normal to reminiscence and just start crying.cause if it isnt, then i noe for sure i'm not normal.
to those who i probably have hurt, by accident, or purposely..sorry...i really am...cause its not who i really am
renditioned soulessly at 1:36 PM
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