Wednesday, July 27, 2005
i've come to the point where i realised i cant keep many close to me cos inadvertly i end up just hurting either them or myself.i don want any of that to happen.i just wanna move on with what i have in life currently and just be wat i was sposedly meant to be.
its a mask as i once said, the things i do and think are totally two different universes, parallel,adjacent of perpendicular to each, i have no idea.i just know that its tiring to go to bed each night and lie in the dark, wondering what tmr will be, wondering if life is gonna become btr or worse,wondering if theres actually something btr out there that i could or might do in the end.and at the end of that i just reach out into nothingness to find,well basically, nothing.black, and nothing.
is it normal to suddenly feel like crying because of all the things you have inadvertly caused?is it normal to reminiscence and just start crying.cause if it isnt, then i noe for sure i'm not normal.
to those who i probably have hurt, by accident, or purposely..sorry...i really am...cause its not who i really am
renditioned soulessly at 1:36 PM
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
well yes.sam finally decided to update.lol.
1stly my exams are like way over, but on a much darker noter,my promo's are coming up in less than 2 mths...what the freak
bomb blasts.idiotic.period fullstop.nth more to say.oh yea...Londoners shld really consider moving...espc if its now a "shoot to kill" crime to wear a heavy coat underground.its basically really stupid.the weather is so horrible there and yet people cant have the liberty to wear what they want.and you so get discriminated by your color.like heLLO?!just cause you're darker dont mean you're like an extremist islamic terrorist gonna blow up the subway...get a life stupid London police.as if you don have other crimes to look up like the ones your hoodies do.its ironic if you really look at it,the police going against racism on hoodies and the cult killings?yea..i can just imagine
well, singing competition.got first.yea.but all i got was this obiang looking trophy made of plastic and 30bucks popular voucher.like i'm gonna blow it all on pens!whee.what a big thrill.why not kino vouchers?!
woots.i may be shortlisted for this whole day workshop to do with CSI and forensic science.damn am i happy.haha.its like YEA!LOL..cant say more.words cant really describe it.hahaha.(NoO. i'm not being sarcastic.seriously.i am not.lol)
well.sam has nothing much more to report other than irritating classmates and schoolmates who get on her nerves.but i guess thats like what life comes with now and den.not to mention the occassional eyecandy and other stuffs.like nice ppl i meet sometimes.and the nice classmates and schoolmates.yea.haha.peace to all.
renditioned soulessly at 6:28 PM
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