Thursday, May 26, 2005
whats considered ethical and not ethical in the world today?is it ethical to attack a country and at the same time assume they have WMDs when they dont?or is it more ethical to allow ones country's scientists to implant human brain cells into animals to experiment and later euthanise them for dissection?is it then even more ethical to allow a woman to die because her husband claims she'd rather be off life support?if its ethical, then the world has something to weep about...it is saddening that a man with that much power has not much mental capacity to actually understand the fathoms of ethics...and how low can we sink into this shallowness of stupidity till we actually realise and come to the conclusion that our actions are actually unethical...if the cogs of that brain ever start to wind up and work properely one of these days...
renditioned soulessly at 2:47 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
bwahahha..*big grin* i'm in the finals for the chinese singing competition...
jack me now will ya?bwahahhaha....you cant get me down...
renditioned soulessly at 9:56 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
the worlds a bloody rat race in which you have to be there, get there, and scramble your puny ass to the top of the food chain...preferably to fire your underlings when they make the slightest mistake...but behind that pyramid, who does the real controlling and who makes the decisions?are you merely a figurehead that sits there silently commandeering while strings are tugged behind by the pupetteer?
politically speaking how true issit that our governments actually work on a system of true meritocracy of which there are ppl who have deserved to sit there on the "throne" and lead the country?and that their decisions are based on what they think is best for the country and not what the ppl controlling them think is best?and more importantly can we say that when they make the decisions is it not a biased one in which they can have some form of personal agenda behind it.
how far can we go to achieve what we seek, how low can we stoop to see to it that we deserve what we think we deserve, and by hook and by crook is it fair that we go to all means to conquer what we set out to acheive?
renditioned soulessly at 11:29 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
you can just ignore that post on top if you can just like stop jacking me so much..cos theres a limit to everything one does...and its freaking irritating when you go overboard....so sometimes you gotta shut up..yar...
chi singing comp was alrite...just that i was applauded for b4 the second chorus...donno if that was cos it was good or they wanted me off stage..yar just jack me now and post on my tag board that they wanted me off stage...whatever...
tennis was fun...apart from the giggly antics of the 2 ahems in tennis....they're just weird..in that sense catch no ball and got alot of air....my new racket i can say is damn light...and i've gotta get used to it...lol...kinda hitting it all the way out cos i keep thinking i'm using my older racket...
i realised the world around me revolves kinda weirdly...all my frens are like in dan lians as jose would aptly approach it...like jose...all of a sudden shes off westlife...which was like her total world for donno how many years....kaisin has got *ahem* and shirrin's into J....like....is it that different being in a mixed schl than in a single sex schl?lol...something to wonder...the bees and the birds and the relationships around the world...in sg and in england...lol...
renditioned soulessly at 7:03 PM
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Hate:1 to have a strong dislike or ill will for;loathe;despise
2 to dislike or wish to avoid;shrink from
-vi. to feel hatred
1 a strong feeling of dislike or ill will;hatred
~Webster's New World Dictionary
basically...mebbe thats how i feel now....and its freakingly increasing by the bloody day...cos its insufferable and intolerable...i donno how i just go by everyday....its just so much more quieter when the hated is not around...and so much more peaceful....
renditioned soulessly at 7:40 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005
doesnt the world get so crowded sometimes you feel alone?lonely and just by yourself and wish that again you had that someone by your side?but like i noe, its not possible to keep someone by your side forever and make them stay cos lifes a crazy game in which you give or take, lose some win some and people leave you...or you leave them...its been 2 months give or take..i just wish i had someone to pass the time with like i had before....
renditioned soulessly at 8:05 PM
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
urgh...things will never change will they?freak the ole fogey today and how he probably coerced that poor guy to write his stupid "unreserved apology"...it was probably all scripted...either that or he couldnt stand to lose face and got someone to hack the site to write that apology....whatever mr P....
anyway....shall blog abit about my uninteresting life yar...so you won always have to hear my seriously disturbed thoughts about society and the ole fogeys innit...
well..if you cant beat em join them...thats why i got digimon too melly...and pls...don stab me...virtually it doesnt hurt...your digimon SUCKED thats why it died la...pls lor...it lost to every one of my digimons...but hey its gotta die some day...haha....you got a tyranomon instead by cheat today din ya?haha...and my octopusmon died din it?lol...
went out on sun with the pw group....met sudhan, nashata, jun kwang and chee qing at orchard library....well...they did most of the gpp i have to admit...i just contributed a lil..so i guess i really have to put in effort on the surveys which i'm in charge of..but cos i was already in town i like wanted to eat lunch with somebody...so popular sam called popular ks to go eat....sigh...but 2 popular ppl cannot go and eat with each other cos too much popularity you see..haha...so in the end i ate alone...sadly...but had rum and raisin haagen daz to cheer me up after that...lol..
so later went up to the library and sat innit to read bk 12 of naruto which i can conclude that naruto is something thats WORTH READING...lol...it rocks basically..nashata came with this guy whom she introed as "best fren" but i suspect more to it that meets the eye yea....haha...and sudhan was in the library aready...-_______-...the ghost at work....and chee qing was abit late...but not like our STAR bball player...who was ceremoniously 2 hours late....like coming to wedding liddat...ks decided to come to town anywayz...lol...so she came...den she wanted to go our sommore later so she called THAT GUY called kelvin...who claimed he wanted to make "life investments" which later turned out to be...soccer betting....just heard from ks he made 200bucks....=____=...childish idiot liddat still can make so much money...crapped with both ks and kelvin and contributed some ideas to pw...den ks and kelvin left to meet kelvin's fren at wisma....by then the pw was ending so i went to wisma to meet ks and kelvin and his fren..lol..incidentally jia wen and qi qi where there too...den ks ordered this horrible drink that tasted soo minty and chocolatey too....yeuch...den like just talked and crapped and took photos...nice photos...kelvin was trying to take ego fotos of himself..=___=....anyway crapped sommore...then left..but rememed my pen was still with them....so smsed ks to tell her to help me keep...basically i wrote "ks, my pen is still with that guy, can help me keep?" and later i got this crazy call from kelvin that had him shouting at me asking me to call him by his name and not call him that guy...whatever i said....haha...so i persisted and smsed ks again and called him that guy..and he pranked called like 5 times...so childish....den he called again and sounded like pissed and hurt at the same time that i kept on calling him THAT GUY...like watever...lol...so childish lor...haha...but i decided to be unchildish and smsed to apologise..." tell that guy that i'm sorry i didnt call him kelvin" haha...whatever...sigh...ks is just fun to be out with....cos can crapp with her loads.....mebbe i shld go out with her more...hmmm..haha...
renditioned soulessly at 8:26 PM
Monday, May 09, 2005
how superior can a being get if the superior beings above constitute as the gods and we are just lowly humans, not questioning the powers of the ones above but i'm rather directing this at the idiots who think they rule the earth...namely...okay not namely...but basically to hit the nail on the head some guy who's name starts with P yea?so i'll just leave it at P...
is it wrong to justify ones views and comment on things they think are wrong?what is the society today?suppressed or one that is allowed freedom of speech and thought?singapore is trying to open up, the minister for education speaks to youths on programmes on education and speaking up, to open up and voice your views, we're deciding on building a crap IR that would justify the means to gamble without violating that law that states gambling is illegal...ironic isnt it?and then here we have P stating that he'll bomb the pants off anyone who wants to go against him...like hello?how backwards and unprogressive are you in this society that is trying to progress but cant get anywhere with nannying dictators like you?is it wrong to just like tell ppl what you think?i gues it is in some ppls perspectives, but obviously they cant take criticism without a pinch of salt and wanting to sue the pants off anyone....its kinda like "hey i wanna be right all the time, i'm gonna sue you cos you pointed out a teeny mistake that i mite have made, and hell i don wanna correct it."isnt it?kinda reminds you of hitler or saddam...cept in singapore....
are we works of the society that doesnt want to progress because we fear being in the wrong?drones that mindlessly continue even though there is a glitch in the system...in P's case....thank heavens he's old and mite be dead later when i mite go into the work force...he probably will go on with working towards what he thinks is rite...without changing his views....barmy ole fogey...how superior can one get when the superior beings constitute the gods and not those idiots and fogeys who think they rule the earth....
renditions of a tainted soul
renditioned soulessly at 5:07 PM
Saturday, May 07, 2005
really,whatever we post on this page and whatever we write on this web log is whatever we seek to convey to someone reading or looking at this site....but by what means can action be taken upon words that are up on a text block which can be removed and then replaced?
seriously, all the hoo hah about the web logs on racial discrimination and the A*star issue by a student half way around the globe is something thats spookily true, that weblogs are being noticed and that there is no more freedom of expression...if there were, why are there lawsuits threatening ppl who defame others when sticks and stones will break our bones and names will never hurt us?words, written to express thoughts and suggestions should be taken with a pinch of salt, should it not?especially if its on a blog, after all where is the right to freedom of thought and expression if we were not allowed to speak our minds?
but even so i think there are really boundaries, one of which that has been crossed is that of the racial discrimination in singapore...its probably true to say that everyone of us has told a racial joke or something like that before...but its sad to noe that we discriminate color even though the blood that runs in our veins is the same hue of maroon....we're 99.9% genetically similar, and yet there is no tolerance for each other in some people's eyes....i had a fren tell me that in my sec schl her classmate yelled at an indian schlmate to leave the class after the indian schlmate stepped in....her reason:" i hate indians"...i so wished i was there to slap her in her face and demand she apologise...its disgusting when we see each other in different lights just because they are culturally different or they have a different skin color....cos we're all the same....we're homo sapiens, humans the same species living on the same planet and breathing the same air....everyone is the same, just give them the chance to show it to you and take everything with an open mind and i'm sure you'll realise that the people around you, although different in skin color, speaks the same language as you, breathes the same air as you, has 99.9% similar genetic makeup as you...and is of course...if you are human...human too....
renditions of a tainted soul
renditioned soulessly at 5:29 PM
Thursday, May 05, 2005
monotone has never been a word in my dictionary...guess thats actually how my cca life is now...kinda suspended and kept in animated suspension....and i so wish it wasnt...
its kinda weird isnt it...that you walk thru the halls of memory and remember the things that happened last time...and you wish you were back in the past and yet at the same time in the present...
went down ytd to tampines sports hall to support the guys in badminton....i actually wished later i hadnt gone,not cos i didnt want to support the guys but mainly because reminiscing is painful...its cold and sad when you realise that all the people you used to see and fight against with all your might and fury when you played badminton were there...the ppl you wanted to prove wrong against, the ppl whom you wanted to show you were good and deserved the medals you won all those years,whether literally or mentally...and yet you hold nothing but your bag,wearing your blouse and skirt and there they are on the courts donning schl jerseys and holding badminton rackets....no glory in sitting on the side wishing you were out there fighting and battling for your schl, to show everyone what your worth....basically...i cried out there...and i'm crying now....cos i wished so hard that we could have played in the interschl nationals....and yet....
is it fun or even fair that our class is so split up?we've like one half 32 and the other half mostly 31 and some ppl just "anti clique" with no clue how "anti clique" they are....i really wonder what they're trying to drive at....and anyway if that 31 half is considered a clique i really wonder how together and clique-ish it is....cos i'm constantly at loggerheads with most of them....
and i really don understand...i've tried to talk and converse....said hi and bye...was nice and everything...and yet....its still cold at one end and its kinda spreading...don really kinda see the same sorta attitude i used to last time....when we were closer and more together and stuff...now its just cold....the ppl whom i thot were nice and stuff just faded...the more colorful they were...the more platonic and black and white they are now....my presence everywhere is starting to become non existent i realise....once again i don fit anywhere....
i guess its meant to be
cos i never was and never will be.
cos i never was me and never will be me
frosted over and iced inside
my lifes a cold shit
and its freezing hell
but guess it doesnt matter
cos i cant feel it
renditioned soulessly at 9:55 PM
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