Tuesday, January 25, 2005
okay...i dunno, but i think blogger sites for me is screwed....couldnt access during my shanghai trip nor could i access it yesterday and today...stupid...
is it true that i could write all i want here and not be seen, heard or understood? is it true that on this text that i type on i could violate a legal parameter? is it true that here i have no way to fully express my views? then what am i doing now?lol...how much that i write actually is read, is understood and is seen?to what extent am i writing to find out more, to realise what i can express?questions that never may be answered, one answer, because no matter how much i write, will i be actually heard?
renditioned soulessly at 6:52 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
thank you so much ks, i don see you for 2 mths, and when i do i get sick...*hugs*
haha, whatever...lol...i wan see you again and pass it back to you....cant stand it...one day for cca day and i'm sick....WHATEVER LORH..diao...my throat hurts like shit, and i'm trying to cough but nth comes out....argh....lol....and weirdly, almost everyone else is sick too...haha...okay...enuff said...i'm going shanghai tmr ppl! woohoo...shopping...sight seeing...yay...haha...
renditioned soulessly at 8:56 PM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
missing you guys like shit.crescent 2004.
i've realised how badly i've actually missed you guys.although i kinda like cj, but everyones everywhere else.cant say i havent realised that some ppl arent the ppl i've known for 4 years,the people who have walked through my crescentian life with me.its hard to fit in,especially since the people who i noe now,don really noe me.but its nice here,and i really wonder if i have the chance to leave it all,will i leave because of the people or because i have to,forced by someone.lol,donno why,but somehow i feel left out.yesterday,went back to crescent.so damn happy to see pat and ks and suhan and everyone i saw yesterday,the badminton booth,although wasnt the best,was smth i kinda missed too.but before that,when i was in cj,i kinda felt like everyone wasnt really close.i feel weirdly left out,abit unfamiliar,and a strange feeling that i'm being treated like i don exist.sad,lol.either all that or i'm just considered irritating.does it matter?gp question.i answered it wasnt all that impt,but who am i kidding here?myself?or others?i hate it when people put on masks.i've tried to get rid of mine,but i'm meeting new ones each day that goes by.i just want to go back to the people i've known for 4 years.the people who don actually mind me being there cos they noe what i'm like.and it scares me,the thought that i actually might return to putting on my mask again,to be someone i'm not just to fit in.
miss you all.i'm not me anymore.
renditioned soulessly at 8:34 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
ODAC & badminton
well...thank you for taking that either i dont exist or that i'm just irritating.fullstop.period.
renditioned soulessly at 9:28 PM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
okay.....jc is fun....for now...haha....had so much fun over the week...played damn lotsa games, got really dirty....and bullied guys in class for fun....wahahhaha....put rocks in someones bag, made the guys in our class dress up as drag queens and made them wear conical bras...ahahahha...anyway....i'm def gonna join ODAC...lol...it so rocks....lol....they had an orientation yesterday...i went....then they made us do this drain walk thing....made us walk into the drains under CJ.....it was damn dirty but fun...hahaha...then they drenched us in kopi, milo, soya sauce, ketchup, chilli sauce, colgate and mud...bleh....haha....had to bathe 2wice to get the smell out of my hair....but i still wan join...hahah.....and aso they have runs every tues and thurs morning around the neighbourhood....sound vaguely familiar???wahhahaha.....then if i have time...mebbe join art club....got ppl draw manga de....i wan join!!!ahahhaha....okay...must tone down le...next week all lessons.....bleh....hate my gp cher aready....hahah
renditioned soulessly at 1:06 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
well....tmrs the day i'm gonna be going into cj...sian...lol...having these comments being made that cj's a havoc schl...blahblah....lol...like it matters...sam=havoc...haha...everyone noes that....urgh...someone recommend me some games?i'm bored like hell sometimes...need smth to play...lol...i'm so bored now...i'm gonna stop writing and just stare at the ceiling...cos i havent got anything to write...lol....cheers...
renditioned soulessly at 7:09 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
bleh....i just drew something real nice and realise that my scanners busted....-_____-....stoopid thing....happy new year ppl....lol.....its cold and rainy and its real happy ^^....bleh....haha..kinda miss everyone from crez now....even emily and her scariness...lol...its kinda funny, you never really notice how much everyones company really means when schls over and you get lonely from not seeing the whole bunch of crazy dudettes from your class and the creepy ppl who you think you wanna get away from...lol...gargh....miss you all ppl....haha...eh....eu introed me to this nice nice site...i shall once again...ADVERTISE...play this game
can i mention my frog wins races?lol.....^^ cheers to the new year ppl....
renditioned soulessly at 2:09 PM
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